The demon inside me demands a lot of things recently. However, there is also an angel. While I'm finding it hard to listen in balancing manner, I'm more inclined towards the demon. As people say having negative thoughts tend to attract negative things. I should rather say ideally the demon should be kicked out of my mind but I'm just a normal human being. I do not know how to do that or rather to control it.
The angel says ignore everything around you. Let go all the burdens which have been sitting on your shoulder for so long. It is important for self healing. Do you want to focus on yourself or others? Angel also says there is no such things as expectations. It only creates pain, miseries and sufferings. Accept the reality that peace comes when do you expect nothing from others. Detachment is necessary. While this is completely true, as I said I'm just a normal human being (It would have been so much easier if I was made as a robot).
Having saying that, no one can run away from reality. Even though we do not want it, or think about it, nothing can be done to ignore it. Rather, painfully swallow it as though it is one bitter pill. A better way is to trick the mind to give some things to focus and ponder upon. Of course, it is hard said than done. But, most of the time, or maybe all the time, the greatest influence is none than other but ourselves, our dearest twin who is born and will die together. Over time, we, painfully learn many life lessons, making us wiser and wiser. We will talk less, think more and sometimes keep silent knowing it is just merely waste of time and effort.
While life journey continues, we shall say bring it on to me - whatever it is, I'm ready to face you.
~ When we are no longer able to change a situation - we are challenged to change ourselves - Viktor E.Frankl
