Life's lesson

It has not been easy to write. But when the ideas start to flow in, it would be endless till you don't which one to write first. This time I decided to write something about what I experienced recently. I thought it would be something easy but it was not. I remember when I was a child, I had fear of standing at the stage and giving a speech. It was not about delivering the speech it self. But it was more to fighting the fear within.  To face the crowd, looking at the faces staring at you, it was a nightmare. It happened to me, it was still vivid in my mind and made it worst, I forgot my lines! But when you were forced to do it, you had to do it anyways. Back then, there were no one to motivate you, to understand what you were going thru or even your feelings. That was long, long time ago. 

And it felt like the history was repeating itself when my little one still in preschool was selected for the finals in story telling. It came as a surprise to me though. But it was partially my responsibility to ensure she remembers her story well. I didn't know why I got so worried. Rather than being happy, I was in stress! You can't explain to a six year old how important it was! All she knew was to have fun. I had tough time coaxing her to memorize her story. I hate to do it but I had to promise her to get favorite toy if she listens to me. I kept telling her she had to do her best. But deep in my heart, I wished she 
would really do well. I had to admit I pushed her quite hard. The thought of her forgetting her story keep coming to my mind. I had the same fear which I had long time ago. I kept reminding myself I should just let go my fear and let my little one be herself. The time finally came. I thought I wouldn't be able to compose myself to see her performing on stage (but I had to save my pride too! ). Her turn came and my heart started to beat so fast.  What's happening ?! I never felt like this before. It made me thought how my parents would have felt for me when I was young. It made me to think this moment was special and there are more things to face in future in parenthood. My little one as I expected did forget one of her lines but she managed to pull thru. This is why we should always think positive and stay away from negative thoughts. Let the kids be themselves, not to push them too hard, allow some space for them to grow naturally. This would be the best for them!