A Reminder To Self

Have you ever woken up one day and wondered what have you done for your self? What purpose do you bring? How are you going to make yourself worth? Each time I wake up, I wondered how the day will be for me. How will I solve my problems? What are the challenges lined up for me? All the time, we go through the same routine. How different have you thought today? Do you ever think you should make a difference everyday? Should we be reminded rather than focusing on challenges and fulfilling your daily needs you must also think of your values? Why are we so selfish sometimes? To us we must concentrate in our problems. Make it go away. We need more money to survive. We need to earn our living. We need that and this.

Little we realized we are belittling ourselves. We are confining ourselves into a small world where only two things exist - ourselves and problems. Solving our issues made us to think creatively. This is how your brains are wired anyways. But we need to teach our brain to learn and accept that not just problems exist. There are more than that. There is the Creator. He who gives and takes it away. The power of Divine whom we should lean on. He who throws the challenges on us and entrusts faith at the same time. He who complicates matters but shows you the way to entangle it. Our goal should be to instill an acceptance. An acceptance where you will open your heart and say 'I shall be positive and train my mind to think good all the times'.

How important it is for us to maintain same level of positiveness ? Believe that you can. Nothing is impossible, everything is possible. Say the mantra you should do good everyday. Let it engulf you with good feelings reflecting you are making a difference directly or indirectly. It is a reminder for myself too!

Oh where, oh where ?

The flight has gone missing for more than 2 weeks now and no where to be seen. Least we thought it would happen to a small country like Malaysia. How are we suppose to know such an unfortunate thing would befall ? The life of entire passengers are shrouded with question marks. How could the plane vanish? Would we find any survivors? When would we find the craft ? What happened to the airplane? These questions runs in everyone's mind. And it is still running. The issue does not belong to one nation. It has grabbed the entire world wide's attention.
The anguish and heartbreaks of all the family and friends of the passengers is indescribable. The wait seems to be too long. Every moment seems like an eternity even for us who are not directly related. We can just hope for the best. Prayers are with all of them, wishing we can soon find a conclusion and an ending for the misery. Hope the God will show us the way and lead us the right path.

Hoping for miracles

When you are doing good and building up wealth , share it with others they say ! You are supposed to share it with less fortunates as this is where your lifetime happiness will grow. God didn't give you wealth for you to boast. Or He didn't give you wealth to compare yourself with others. Therefore, understand this truth and share your fortunes with the rest whenever you can. Making others happy should be your ultimatum. You are not going to bring your wealth to your grave. As such, making sure you are doing your bit to help and support others creates life time impact, provides inner sense of achievement and peace within yourself.
Talking on the other point, at this time, the fate of MH370 is still unknown. We hope for miracles to happen. On this unfortunate incident, we are praying for the safety of all on board wherever you are. Hope the God will show His mercy on us and end this painful wait soon. The sorrows of all of the next-to-kins are deeply felt by all of us. Their grieve and miserable waits are painful for us. God, let the plane be known !

The beautiful 5 years

Yesterday, my daughter completed 5 years of her life and started a brand new 6th year. It was her 6th birthday. An age which we all would love to go thru again , if given the chance. An age of innocence, running around happily, eagerly expecting presents from adults. It seems this year this bubbly girl knows how to ask 'Where is my present?' compared to the previous years where she was sort of less 'questionable'. 
She was all smiles when she was able to choose her own birthday dress (a privilege which was given to her intentionally). I guess this little girl has matured a little bit where she chose a purple color dress  compared to the traditional pink which was her all time favorite. Kids do change all the time. I think nothing is priceless to see this back then little bundle of joy has grown up so much over the time. Not sure if I should say time flies fast or we are getting older. Maybe both. I remember vividly on this very day 5 years ago, being a new mother and having mixed feelings and reactions. The emotions were just simply cannot be described. 
Fortunately, I was able to come out of the temporary trauma and experience what other mothers would do. It was a chance which I truly feel blessed. Even though there are lots of ups and downs. I think I have grown over the years. Life has taught me many things. This little angel of mine walked thru with me, showering with many experiences which I never imagined. I see my transformation of myself, learning thru difficulties and still learning lessons of life. I'm able to see life in different ways and how it should be seen. There are lots more to see and change. For good for sure. Hope more blessings to come in future so I'm able to carry out duties as a person.

It's time of the year again!

Each time the month of February comes, we will have special extra thoughts. It's not because of Valentines, unfortunately, but it's more than that. It is our little sunshine's birthday we are talking about here. As the chatterbox turns 6 next month, she is most in control of what she wants, happily makes her own decisions. Unlike few years ago, we decide on everything, our preparations and stuffs. Now, she's really growing fast and we are unable to catch up with the pace. Gone are the days when we say 'Why not you wear this blue dress, you look nice in it?' or ' Why not you tie your hair this style, it's much nicer!'. Right now, we will just respect whatever decision she makes for herself, and if that gives her sense of independence and self control, we will go with it. There were times where I miss those good old days, little I know I would be wishing for it again. It's time to let her grow, appreciating each moments as it comes. She taught us many lessons in life and the journey continues. Some are inarguably astonishing to realize how life changes with time. Today, she helped me to decorate her birthday goodie bags. It was a fun filled evening with no phrase said 'I'm bored, what can I do?'. With coloring and cutting, we managed to finish up our assignment for the day !

Simple act of kindness

Yesterday, I was at the bank queuing up to deposit some cash at the kiosk. In front of me there was a lady and her daughter (I guess so because they looked alike). Nationality was unknown. In front of them was another customer. Suddenly, the lady turned and gave me smile. I smiled back. In my heart I thought maybe she likes to smile at strangers. Then her turn came so she and her daughter moved up to do their deposit. There was some problem with the deposit as some notes couldn't go thru, she turned back to look at me and said sorry. I said it's ok. Now, I feel awkward. Why would she want to be sorry? They continued with the transaction and it took maybe a minute or two to complete it. When they were done, she looked at me and said thank you. I was taken aback by this lady's actions. There were times when I waited so long for the person in front of me to complete their transactions but they never apologized. But this lady was kind to say sorry to me because she made me to wait (even though I didn't wait for long!) 
It made me realize there are bunch of good people in this world. People who care about others. Genuinely. It was good to know. Hope this generation lives forever. They can be the role model to the rest. A simple act of kindness made me day! 

Believe In Giving

As an ordinary person, no one can deny that we are more comfortable in receiving than giving. In fact, it is much easier to do. Giving seems to be something hard especially when we are clinging to it. A quote from Winston Churchill goes like this ' We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give'. Sometimes we just have to accept that we are born not for ourselves but for others. We work hard for our family and children. We try to please them as much as we can. We are running day to day life in a routine. Giving just being regarded as something not so important rather than necessary. We need to realize the power of giving. You reap what you sow. If you give kindness, you will get kindness in a different form. We have to train our mind to accept this fact.
There were times, I used to ask myself, why should I give money to beggars. There are beggars who just sit by the road side and beg. There are few who are disabled but sell some stuffs and gets money in return. For those who are just begging , am I encouraging them to do more begging when I slip a dollar or two into their coin box ? I have stopped giving money to this kind of people not because I'm selfish but because I don't want to be the contributor to begging culture. I used to stand by this rule for many years till recently. When it doesn't matter anymore when your heart is all out to help the needy. It doesn't matter anymore when you feel some kind of contentment when you give be it financially or something which can't be measured like kindness. Indeed, it takes an effort to make people feel that they should give. It is just a feeling which comes naturally without any force. It is the best feeling of the day when you know that you made a difference in someone's life. This good feeling should continue as long as you are alive in this world. Hope the God gives me an opportunity to do that!